I think I know how you might be feeling right now. The lack of control, the self hate, the hopelessness, anxiety, low self esteem, and depression. Perhaps you also have a partner who you are tired of lying to about your addiction ... or maybe they have already found out and your relationship is strained or breaking!
This is life for a porn addict and it is a miserable and lonely existence without help or support for the most part. Friends and family may not understand or be able to help, the taboo nature of this addiction makes it hard to even seek help! The fear of even being laughed at because most people do not understand that pornography can be an addiction keeps you locked in a cage of fear and loathing.
Okay, I do not want to say all these things to make you feel bad, or worse, than you already feel. What I wanted to do was show you that I understand where you are, and where you are coming from, because I have been there myself - twice!
That's right, I was a porn addict too once when I was single. I thought I had recovered from this and put it behind me, but years later when I was married I fell right back into the habit because I had not really come to terms with this problem at a base level.
The other reason that I wanted to cover off all these miserable depressing things is to make a point about what you could be leaving behind. To make you see the stark truth of what porn addiction is, and what it can be as it gets progressively worse which inevitable happens.
Some addicts manage to crawl out of their addiction slowly but can fall back into...
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